a friendly reminder: COLLEGE IS NOT FOR EVERYONE
- people who went/go to college are not ‘better’ or ‘smarter’ than anyone else
- there is no right time to pursue ‘higher education’
- no matter what, you are still a person and you deserve to be treated with respect
Who are you supposed to talk to about things when your best friend and girlfriend of three years wants to just all of a sudden stop talking to you for a month?
I’m weak. I need you to tell me everything will be okay. I need you to tell me that there will be a tomorrow. I need to talk to you, about nothing. I can’t do this. I feel so empty. My reason to be is gone.
You know, I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didn’t mean as much to someone as you thought you did, and you just feel stupid, and because you looked desperate, about caring too much.
I hear you’ve been telling all your friends that you’re done with me like you always knew things wouldn’t work out. And I’ve been hearing things from people that I don’t want to talk to, like it matters who you’re sleeping with now. Can I erase from my mind anything that you said or any time that we spent with each other? I don’t want to waste away another cell on a memory when you’re just another meaningless lover. Forget the nights that we spent laughing until the morning on your bedroom floor without a thought about your roommate asleep down the hall. Forget the days we’d waste in bed, tangled, the smoke still on your breath, undressed and pinning you up to the wall. I swore I heard you talking when I was tossing in my sleep. You were always trying to walk in circles around me. I was out one night when I saw you and you froze me where I stood. I would hate you if I could. I would hate you but I’m not finished yet. Even you, up on that pedestal, the time will come when you will deconstruct yourself and remake what you are. When it does you’ll remember me and the words I spoke and wonder how you ever could have strayed so far.
Jesus fucking Christ
Having an anxiety disorder is like that moment where your chair almost tips or you miss a step going down the stairs but it never stops